Steam rises from my calves
am I hot or cooked?
burn in/out my core

Blood rises to my head
press out the borders
of my flesh
remind me I’m alive
still feeling numb
angry at machines
and their capital

Blood pounds in my ears
mask the sounds
of his.my shame
cover me in my own fluids
still feeling helpless
angry at landlords
and their egos

Water trails down my chest
am I sweat or tears?
drain me in/out

I hear I’m about to make a mistake
I realize to        that mistake is
you                                            me
hide <> erase <> problem

I’m the best at collapsing make room for your insatiable
I don’t need                      fuck
you                                  myself
big dick <> little d’clit <> forever girl

Light flickers behind my eyelids
am I dark or light?
replay in/our danger

Shadow betrays my            frame outside my            brain
female                       male
show me you t-ts                               c-ck
whore                                              monster

Fog coats the mirror
what is my name?

I am a constant                                         temporary
state of                                                    amnesia

Elliot, Mike, Frank, David, Joe, Jack, J, J…
JJJJJJJ
is something

J…{}{}{}{}
Ja –~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Jac//?!

Wake up!

Please

I need       inside
you            me