She’s walking on my keyboard
Typing a silent message — pay attention to me!
Get out of your own head!

I can’t tie everything together so neatly
The truth has so many stands
But a lie
a lie
is static

I can’t even control what is inside
Never mind what is outside — you and your body!
Un(der)stated desires!

I am his object of guilt and shame
He hurts (me to hurt) him
As it is
it always
has been

You worry these days about lying
When you used to talk about [the poetics of love]:

Black / White
Male ? Female
Family Man \ Fagg-t

I don’t know how to compose that life
I only know how to compose a lie

My lies protect me by protecting you
I will tell your story of yourself — its a funny story!
Silence!

I will believe the lies he tells yourself
You don’t know what kind of wrath
He’d reign
on me
otherwise

And you can’t shatter!
And you can’t break!
Because I fucking need you!
(protect me…
(nurture me…

I will rip the power from your walls
Tear out your eyes from their sockets
Shove your head into the raw existence of me
become
whole
authentic
alive

You can live too
You can compose more than a lie
with me
please come
lie with me