I can put it on
I can put it on for you
For you

Slip the hold
Grasp the cracks
I can’t
Control

I am so scared
to lose you
as your back turns away

I am so scared
to feel you
chest on my back

make/resorts
make/resists
make/restraits
make/restores

twist my desire like straw paper
rolled between your anxious fingers

wanting your abuse
the only way I know how to protect

watch me decay
to half life

But you said
You said
You were angry
What is that?
Danger?

But you said
You said
I’m here
Hold my trust

But you were angry
You were
You said
You said
Let’s not blow up

Blow up is what I know
how to protect
hold me?
I’m decay
Half life
Blow up

All I know
is my fault
is your desire
is my shame
is your come

Obsess control
The only control I know
Is over my own brain
(heart

If I can think it through
If I can think you through
If I can think through you
enough
again
over
some more

You won’t fury
You won’t hurt
You won’t touch
I will want
What you want
So I can want
So I can want