Month: September 2016

get

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He loves her sex and poetry
(feel all of it, straighter hips, lips and balls

I’m also her gay sexuality
(the one really knows this me

Before all desires submission
(the one really knows this fantasy

I want to threaten or poetry
(but he expected. I’m just shy

Do yet myself == “Do”
Get up, getting off of harming anyone, you’ll forget when I come home

I’ll be a boy, stuck in before all your feelings
In before you get it up
In before prosthetic dicks

This thing about desire: leave the muck
I just treated him, scared

My third week is so hurt.
The role he may think, mimic

I’m more comfortable with lots of thinking
Sit down, get off the edge, I’ll remember when you come home

do

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Do it. Do it all from him
(he’s a vampire

If I had his fantasies they’d involve punishment
an alarm along the wall.

He walks in this way, angry to tell you now leaving
leave the very idea of being me!

She rides out something beautiful
— shatter on us —

A lesbian body can
demonstrate an idea: I must love him
Ignore
Acquiesce

But bring her out
)) this voice ((

Do it from him
Ignore a poet, adversary, wife
Be a (wo)man who takes care of his balls
Ride out something beautiful
As punishment

When you come
^
< .home. >
v
“I’ll be angry”

I hate the room
I cannot leave
.the very idea.

Your phone was expected to demonstrate
I am not what
I am her
This fantasy

If I had these dreams, wet with shame
you’d slice me open?

He walks into a role, an adversary, or a wife
an angry wo-man lives inside

He grunts as though he could make her through writing
–guess his limbs–

A gay body can
My hate is so tired: I must love her
Count
Build

He’s just a poet, a butch woman*
*just a body in that moment

He would be so hard under his daddy
(there is no erotic here)

The idea of me is every man in that moment
my sickness builds
/\ a boy /\

Her own pleasure is on us, shattered, angry and jealous

Tie me up and torture my manhood
Make me ashamed of the silences between us

I can overhear your puppet

I really want to love you,
even though ?this body?

other

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Has men. This other could other that
(or jealous I cannot have my own penises
I feel a hard part of other queers

I tried to accept my ability as a woman
Particularly politicized, seeking femme rejection

My attraction shatters if I type enough
Pronoun rejection\

Woman, frame, coffee, reel
Imagine a queer and out loud self, measure myself by others’ rejection

Manhood is anxiety
At present it’s messing, likely, really
Inappropriate

So far all men are homos. Some are similar such as myself. A man can be trying women’s clothes. Too. Some will say, lesbian not gay. Some will be more poetic.

Men are observing politicized desire too. I am not a sham. Muted.

A transman lesbian, my heart is on a lie. I’d rather feel them get off. It’s more than orientation, it’s fatherhood.

Rejection is shatter women-now. I focus in order to like me femme.