Never outside of life to me, back deep and oral.
Harness nerves, work, and houses.
Accommodate exposure and insist it’s desire.

At a moment: they. Real distance.
Secretly I knew you’d recoil when your eye was love.
My affection is cooler than sexuality, more eloquent than hormones.

Issue rationality, need a woman, a way, to be the same?
A flirtation, a cover, and not men.
Make NOT not the only exposure to women.

When you learn the object of your closeness. When you learn you are a boy and are revolted.

Masculine 10
Feminine 6

I am kind
I am obsessed
I am longing
I am identity

I shouldn’t be trying these roles.
Be a friend, focus on the world, focus on sports.
Lie, fit clearly.

Look at what is between my legs. Look at the object and you are revolted.

Masculine 6
Feminine 10

One (trans)
Two (sexual)
I am so proud

Exposure I accept as shallow, strong, physical.
Porn is expended, upset. Torn up fatherhood. Sad desires.
Monitor my sham.

I manifest. Really! A man for a mom.

(Trans) Man 8
Woman (can’t can’t am)
Shooting and being on and on

I imagined other interests.
I feel an out loud orientation.
Be (trans) to (world) myself (in particular).

Attraction 1 – 10
Not all love is erotic
But want want want

Tissues of memories and stories I like:
Notice the A-men, the AR-men, the fishers of men.
God seems to have compromised?

“Normal”
2 Femme
Just Femme

I noticed even back then: control, insecure, reject the body.
His/her rejection her/his way came.
Look at who is between you and God.

Can’t “they” love, not quite, also “they”

I was unhappy?
I was porn?
I was born!

You can have anything so long as I wouldn’t say I saw.
I cannot. I can’t identify as harmed desire.
Blame your fluids, go to a woman, come at me with your ideas.

Femasculine 6
Auto-eroticism (look)
Validity 10

For someone, somehow, I am all orientations: a gender god

I will wander
I will heal
I will hold